Excuse this depressed post.
I just got back from a short weekend visit with my family and sticking with the new trend of things it was a bipolar weekend. High highs and low lows. It was great to see my sister, good times as always. I got to see my grandfather, whom I hadn’t seen in some time. Good music and baking.
However, my grandmother’s health has been declining over the last year, especially since September. This visit made it clear how little time she probably has left…it has made me very sad. My sister is leaving for Mexico in 9 days and my grandmother doesn’t think she will be here when my sister returns. We are both very close with my grandmother and spent a lot of time with her growing up. Saying goodbye to my grandmother is going to be the hardest death I have had to cope with. My other grandmother died when I was quite young, so I didn’t really understand then. When she is gone, I won’t have any grandmothers left. :-( My grandfather adores my grandmother, it makes me very sad to think of him without her.
This will just be added to the growing list of major changes in my life. Parents divorce, death of a grandparent…the idea of moving to the opposite coast is beginning to look like a wonderful escape; a new beginning and a fresh start.
I’m here for you…and will be in the day, weeks, and years ahead.
